Grey

Standing up for what I believe in. I have been struggling with this for the past few years now.
As a kid, I remember what it was like – when I believed in something-I protected it (even if it seemed insignificant to somebody else.)

But lately I’ve been struggling.
What is it with people like me anyway?
One minute I’m on fire for God. One minute I have my eyes fixed on the cross and I remember what His Love does for me and want everybody else to know it too.
And the next minute I’m too shy to talk about God, and want to take my life in a slightly different route from His perfect plan.

After that I’m falling quickly and my world is crumbling. But thankfully God constantly loves me no matter what- and out of His Grace, He catches me despite of my sins. And I am reminded of His amazing Love again.
God is Love. 
I forget easily and get distracted oh so simply. But there’s hope for people like me and I’m never too far.

 

 

John 15: 4,5 Remain united to me, and I will remain united to you. A branch cannot bear fruit by itself; it can do so only if it remains in the vine. In the same way you cannot bear fruit unless you remain in me. “I am the vine and you are the branches. Whoever remains in me and I in him, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me..”

Love
Jeffy

 

No shame

I want to SCREAM it to the world

But I want to do it quietly <3

I want to Celebrate Him And my Life Right now

'cause although it appears imperfect -

IT's EXACTLY WHAT I NEEd

exactly where I want in Life.

Everything is perfect in the Lord.

(no matter what others' say :D)


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This was some spontaneous writing that I did earlier, and it remains unedited because I didn't want it to edited :D

- Love
Jeff

 

Avoid fear?

      “And avoid fear, for fear is the consequence of every lie.”
                                     Fyodor Dostoyevsky - The Brothers Karamazov



       Fear is a Lie.     It's hard to believe-but it's the truth.

Here is a little story: At the beginning of this semester in college, in English Class, we had to do a bunch of things like "Public Speaking" , "Group Discussion" and other things. And quite simply put, I was afraid - of the teacher, of my class mates, of the situation, of failing the class (yeah well you get the picture.) Fear has a way of distorting the size of the thing you're afraid of, in your head.
This fear of my teacher grew well out of hand, and soon I couldn't face her without my heart thumping uncontrollably. I remember my first speech being "The Fear of Public Speaking", simply because that is all that filled my head and there wasn't any room for anything else. 
 One of my friends from school, Lydia, who is also my class mate for this class-stood out with her excellent (and hence inspirational) speeches, simply because of her lack of fear.
Of late, however, I've come to know and love this teacher. I'm glad she sort of pushed us all onto the edges of our comfort zones and right over it. Because how else are we going to learn to fly? 

What I've learnt is this : Fear is just a consequence of a lie. We actually have no reason to be afraid. 

Open up your mind a little bit and watch this amazing video. 

  Once again, I'm putting this on this page, to remain as a reminder for me- that Life is Beautiful when you believe the Truth, so don't let fear confuse you. 

        "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified and do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you where ever you go."

                                                                                            - Joshua 1: 9

 Love
   -Jeff  

Why Serve? :D

Hey :),
 Here is something I wrote for an English Test. It roughly and briefly explains why I think everybody should be involved in some form of positive "service"(and by that I mean, helping others out, keeping only the uplifting of others in mind - for absolutely no personal benefit.)

     Positive change in society begins only when its smallest and most important units - its individuals - begin to think and act positively. Citizens involved in service begin to understand that the world is much bigger than themselves and their problems. They also begin to obtain a different perspective- one which helps them see that their lives needn't be wasted, but can be full of joy and be used to change other lives as well. By this, both the one who is served and the one who serves is benefited. If we want our county to change, we need to see that we are an integral part of it, and by our actions show those around us, through service. 

I know I've said "for absolutely no personal benefit" and then , in the passage mentioned that " by this, both the one who is served and the one who serves if benefited" - and it sounds contradictory, but - it isn't . What I mean is personal benefit will roll in once we focus on other things, besides ourselves. 
    
   I'm not saying that I am an somebody who is an extremely experienced person in the field of Service. 
Au contraire , I am aware of how much I painfully lack in giving back to the society. But I will strive, to maybe become that person someday. One of the main reasons for my posting this here, on this blog, is so that it remains (for however long this page may exist) as a reminder for myself. 

 // Have been Missing In Action for several months mostly because I have been focussing on growth and taking a break-in general. I'm SUPER EXCITED to be writing here again :). Thanks for reading. God Bless :D
Love
-jeff