Where is God when it hurts?

The evening my mother passed away, I happened to read a certain Bible verse which said, "I will never leave thee nor forsake thee" and it changed my life forever. However, in the lives of many others and in other times of my life- God has chosen to be silent during several times of pain and suffering. Here, we begin to question, "Where is God?" "Is God real?" or "Doesn't God love me anymore?"
    Cancer, typhoon Haiyan, not getting accepted for a job are examples of frustrating circumstances that are out of our control - but still causes us pain. But, God holds the Universe in His hand and is completely capable of changing these situations for those who ask Him to- and in many cases He has. When Jesus walked on our planet as a man- He did just that, heal many, calm the sea and give sight to the blind. But even Jesus was not exempt from suffering.
   God Himself asked His little boy to die on the cross. On the cross, Jesus asked the same question we ask today "God, why did You leave me?"
   When everything is alright- it is easy to trust in a good God. However, when the storm begins to rise we question Him, lose our hope and wonder if perhaps we were wrong to trust Him all along.
 If for a moment, we trust that God is the Loving Father- He promises He is, then it must hurt Him more to not heal us when we are broken, than to perform the Miracle we've asked Him to perform.
 Perhaps God doesn't want us to go through tough situations, perhaps He wants us to grow through them (quote by Moriah Peters).
Perhaps He wants something better for us - that we cannot see yet. As a Father, He yearns for us to trust Him completely. For Jesus' obedience, even unto death on the cross, did free us all forever.
Inexplicable pain exists, but He is there-before it, during it, in the midst of it and after it. All we have to do is trust that He is.

"Jamie Bennett: What if we stop believing in you?  

Jack Frost: Hey, slow down, slow down! Are you telling me you stop believing in the moon when the sun comes up?
Jamie Bennett: No.
Jack Frost: Well, do you stop believing in the sun when the clouds block it out?
Jamie Bennett: No.
Jack Frost: We'll always be there, Jamie. And now, we'll always be here.
[points to Jamie's heart]
Jack Frost: Which kind of makes you a Guardian too."

                                                         - quote from Rise of the Guardians

Images from Google.
Further reading Resources: Disappointment with God by Philip Yancey
Love
Jeff

My Life Story D.

The pen to write my story, has never been in my hand.
Every day - my new experiences reminds of something I have forgotten or teaches me a new lesson that I hope to never forget.
It has been exciting penning down- or typing into the computer My Life Story- (describing to you from my perspective about some of the things that have gone on it my life, so far). And to every single person who has gotten in touch with to say "Oh, I didn't know that about you" or "when's the next part coming, I can't wait." - I want to give you a big hug, because you made my day when you did that - and to those who've read it- I'm really happy you did, because that's partly why I write.

Well, here it is the next part of the story:  

I had idolized my friends, and a number of other things, and had changed myself a little bit. I didn't resemble myself anymore.
God took me back, like I was a prisoner He freed me, forgave me and showed me the richness and meaning behind forgiveness.
He showed me the power of Love.
What happened next became the cherishing of a MOST BEAUTIFUL LOVE STORY , that of my God and me.
I spent ALL my time with Him, with the help of the spirit He gave me and Boy, what Blessings He's brought into my life.
However, I continue to reject and disobey Him on several occasions and end up feeling empty & broken.
 

   He is absolutely the only reason I stand. I've also discovered that the hardest part of Loving the Lord is to continue to do so till the very end, no matter what people say. It doesn't even compare, however, to how hard life would be without Him.

Now, when I go to sleep feeling rejected by my friends, I wake up remembering how even though I, rejected the Lord, He Loves me still -so, obviously my friends feel the Grace drip out of me too. When I feel angry, hurt and disappointed with the ones I love - I understand that God goes through the same emotions. If a finite father like mine, feels sad when I don't do well in a test - how much more must MY INFINITE FATHER feel disappointed when I mess up and am broken.

He wants me to do well, because He made me. He wants me to enjoy Him, because He loves me.
and He loves you too.
No matter what you've done. Or who you think you are.

I am imperfect. I disappoint people. I disappoint God. I disappoint myself.Honestly, I have been too afraid to speak, for fear of "if I say the wrong thing". But, I trust Him, and He catches me as I fall. So, I am not afraid.
 
 I realize, that I needed to acknowledge the Truth, and see that it is in my Favour.

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My story isn't over yet, because the One who is writing it has great plans for me. He knows the ending, and so I hope that I'll always be His little girl - not one who forgets Him at any point.

                                                       Mac Powell - When Love Sees you

P.S. The word 'Story' comes in the songs that I've posted with each part.


My Life Story D. (this part) has the song When Love Sees you by Mac Powell.

(Tell me your story. Show me your wounds. And I'll show you what Love sees when Love looks at you. Hand me the pieces, broken and bruised. And I'll show you what Love sees when Love sees you.)

My Life Story C.  has the song Warrior by Demi Lovato
 (..this is a story, that I have never told, I gotta get this off my chest to let it go..)

My Life Story B. has the song Need you Now by Plumb
(Everybody's got a story to tell, Everybody's got a wound to be healed.)

My Life Story A has the song All this Time by Britt Nicole
(..You're the God who sees, the God who rescued  me, This is my story.. )

Did you catch that?
Love Jeffy