LIFE

Hello there reader! :)
Sort of as a sequel to the last post here (Death) is this one.

Life is a lot of different things put together and in each season of Life it means something different.
Here's what my life has been about in this season(which I've tried to put in words in a letter I wrote to God a while back.)
Dear God,                                                                                                                      14/6/2013

(I've edited out the beginning of this letter to God) ...
    
        Primarily because I am not CRYSTAL CLEAR about the matter yet  ( like You said. ) but also because - Now's the time I'm really GROWING IN YOU. Now is Life filled with mistakes and lessons- where I learn how to do it with just You and me :). 'Cause that's my Purpose.
OH, YES, life's about my Purpose which is Following You and lifting other people up instead of putting them down. It's about You and me. Life's about my Passions which are extensions of myself. And about making a living to help other people ( financially, as well) some day. Life (right now)'s about developing hobbies like MUSIC that gives me a positive reach into my soul as well as others! Life's about writing things down, like it always had been.
Life right now is also about Finding Myself. In me and You. And because You found me first. Life's about Loving myself and loving others.
Life is about Discipline, Because I'm a warrior for You & because of You. I know I'm Lazy, but with You (and some Tough Hard Discipline) I know I change by Your Grace.

 Life's about You in me and me in You.

Life's about seeing another's heart first and outside's last (so so hard)

Life's about losing the things I once held close and GRABBING onto You.

Life's about loving the ones that hurt me and hating the things that plague my heart soul and mind like lust and self-hatred.

Life's about SEEING for the first time.
Life's about taking Leaps of faith  that have me feeling like I'm going to fall any minute (though I don't  cause You catch me and Calm Me Down, no matter what).
(Life's about regret when I don't take those leaps of faith) .
Life's about PRAISING through the madness
Singing through the tears and screaming Hallelujah even when it appears as if I have nothing, Because I have EVERYTHING I need because of You and the sacrifice of Your Son.



Life's about living under Your Mercy. Your Grace. Your abundant blessings. Your Love.
Life's about lighting other hearts with You.
Life's about falling after proud moments and being raised by the MASTER, after humble ones.

Life's about seeing that God's way is Good and my way is NONSENSE.

Life's about being the sheep
to Your shepherd.
 The King's Princess.
the Bride to Your Bridegroom.
the Church to Christ <3
the humble servant to Your Merciful Master.
the prodigal Son to Your Father.
Life's about waking up with a reason to LIVE!
Life's about breathing in and breathing out.
Life's ABOUT the SPIRIT helping me with EVERYTHING.
Life's about realizing that every moment of clear thought is a Gift from You.
Life's about being Grateful to YOU.
Life's about being Angry, Confused and sometimes Life's about crying out to You in the midst of Pain.
Life's about ANSWERS from You.
Life's about Promises from You.
Life's about Mysteries, because could I ever understand You?

Life's about realizing how small I am (and a person is in general) in comparison to You.

Life's about discovering that You Sense of Humour is Brilliant. Life's about admiring Your attention to detail...and about not grasping Everything about You and Wanting More of You!

Lord, I've been realizing that I'm sort of like a parasite (although I don't like to picture myself as one- not a pretty sight, sorry) I've been attaching myself onto people and things and dreams and...things of this world. And they weren't able to fill me up.
because, well, because- they're the wrong HOSTS.

You're the right HOST to my Parasite!!
When I read the part in the Bible, where Jesus says "Eat me" it brought me to tears and when you say "Drink of me, I am the Living Water and those who drink me will NEVER thirst" I realize You've put a fountain of living water in me! Thanks to the Holy Spirit in me, it make sense and in Francis Chan's message (About Idolizing?)where in He explained how You look down at me (and other people) and are just broken and confused as to why I would leave YOU (Fountain of Living Water) and chase a broken cistern . instead (say a person..). For I have exchanged a creation in the place of a Creator.
A Blessing can never fill me up.
But You can and have. Help me never forget that .
Love
Your little girl
Jeffy.
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It's been a while since I slowed down, the way I had whilst writing the above letter, and analysed exactly what my life is about; What my "Feelings" are in general, and where I'm heading. This is the sort of stuff I write down in my letters to God (and in my 'journal' before I began writing letters to God), it puts things in good perspective and then it sort of stays that way so I can re-read it later and remember what I was made for.
Which is a good thing.

What is your life about right now?
If you could .. what would you change for the better? why?

Love
Jeffy

My Letter to God

Hey,
     
           A while ago, I fully realized that the only thing that can wholly accept you-no matter what-is a non- breathing notebook. It's a either a notebook you can be completely honest with or God.
   God is obviously so much more than a notebook or a person, even. And ever since I saw the movie "Letters to God" I started addressing all my little diary entries to God. This has become my own private account of all the things I have to say to God (at the particular moment in which I am writing the entry, of course)

So here's the most recent one :

         Dear God,                                                                                   19/3/2013
                            hey. HEY. : D.

Today, You showed me a bit about the kind of nature You want me to CHOOSE to have- That of a child. A child does not hear / see what the world has to say/show. He/she is filled with obedience for the MASTER CREATOR, with eyes and ears only for Him <3. He/she does not trust in the external appearances of another person, but puts his/ her faith in their heart.
 Lately You've also showed that no matter how "popular" or "unpopular" I think a person is - I need to treat them right, show them Love for their heart. And not go out of my way to impress (and hence idolize)anyone, unless God Himself (You) leads me to.
It's strange how insanely simple it is. KEEP YOUR EYES FIXED ON CHRIST. Yet, sometimes it is hard to comprehend. That's when I realize that it's Your divine wisdom provided by the AWESOME Holy Spirit that helps me comprehend it. I ain't doin' it on my own. It's only with the Spirit that I can Love You right.  And Your Grace gives me enough STRENGTH AND WISDOM for each day :). And although some situations - I don't want to go through, You get me through it :). Like I read in the Bible today (was it Paul's letter to the Corinthians?*) where he describes the foolishness of the boasting he was about to do - and did anyway.
 He boasted over his weaknesses. Because, it was through his weaknesses that God was strongest/ most powerful. Hence, through his weaknesses, he is strong. That's awesome.
He also mentioned that because of this-he is content with his weaknesses, shortcomings, failures, troubles, persecutions and all that nasty stuff. Can  You believe how amazing that is? ( Yea, I suppose You can :) Lord!) - [Like . Yes!! I messed this up - Now God can work through me . Yeah, I suppose it does sound a little foolish.]
I need to be content too, right? And REJOICE no matter what. What a crazy notion! And yet it's what is expected of me. And why should I NOT REJOICE?! You make me HAPPIEST. Every happy moment, person/ thing that has made me happy - has made me happy because You worked through them. Help me not forget that Lord.
 I find myself getting excited over the tiniest things, Lord. Like picking out new, clean sheets for my bed from the cupboard. I mean, I am grateful that I have a bed and clean sheets and that I get to pick them and spread them and sleep in them. And it's all Thanks to You, oh Lord.
I've never felt this HAPPY in my life.
Love
Your little girl
Jeff

[* 2Corinthians 12: 7-11]

Not all of my entries are this - happy? But I have to say that nothing matches the amazing feeling that comes from just putting it out there for Him to see.

And now I've put it out here , for whoever else reads this page to see - which honestly, is a little disturbing because...you know, it's private stuff. However I also feel lucky, that I get to share what God's Love has done for me in such a public way.

A friend of mine and I were talking one day, of all the different kinds of things that He did for the people we knew and how He loves us all sort of differently- the way each of us needed to be Loved. It's kind of like if you have a friend, who knows and loves a lot of different people, and obviously this friend's relationship with each and every one of those people is going to be different (custom-made to suit the individuals in that particular relationship).

What I'm trying to point out from this analogy is that, what I have to say to God, is probably different from what you might have to say to Him. And my question is ,
 if you wrote a Letter to God? ( or say, a text message - if you're not the letter writing type) what would it say?

 

Love
 Jeff